Man this has been a really hard week. I've just been so depressed about my whole situation. My family and friends are trying to be supportive and i really really appreciate it, but it makes me feel like shit even more....i feel like such scum sometimes. Matt and I are doin really good in spite of everything...I'm so glad that he is such a great and awesome man. He may be a little silly and annoying at times, but when it comes down to it, he's got my back and he loves me and that's the best feeling. I'm at my mom's house til sunday...and i don't even really know why im here, but i didn't really wanna be at home either...i wish life were easier....and happier...well...i guess for now that's all....hope for something happy for me!